It’s Okay to Not Be Okay

harsh

It’s easy to beat myself up when am already down; it’s easy to be upset that i can’t snap out of a bad mood. Sometimes, it takes enough strength to move mountains just to get myself out of bed. When everyone else seems to be floating by effortlessly, my day is progressing slowly, as though i am trudging through thick cement, treading water just to stay afloat.

Sometimes i end up being disappointed with myself, frustrated with my sadness and my anxiety and my complicated mood swings. It’s easier to stack my shortcomings into one large, overwhelming pile than it is to recognize my triumphs. Whether or not I can see it, i am crossing hurdles. Even if some days are a struggle, some weeks seem eternally dark, and some months are the hardest battles i’ll face, it’s okay to not be okay.

I always remember that:

1. I am work in progress. I am not an end goal or a finished good; am not supposed to be perfect all the time. I am still learning new ways to do things and new things about myself. Being patient in this time of discovery and recognizing that my darkest moments may help me shine in my brightest later. I always imagine myself to be a blob of clay on the potter’s wheel. God is the potter and I am the clay. HE is constantly moulding me chipping off the rough edges. Sometimes i go through the most gruelling OOH! AAH! OUCH! moments. It’s OKAY ! I realise that i am being moulded into a beautiful jar of clay. I am work in progress. 🙂 🙂

2. Some days i may take two steps forward and three steps back. I remind myself that i am still stepping forward and am still progressing. Changes in direction may knock me off my feet but they’re a chance for me to rest and rejuvenate and then get back up. I always remember one thing what God has promised me. God has plans to to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a fututre.

3. Sadness, discouragement, disappointment, anxiety, and frustration are good. They don’t feel good and they don’t always result in the best decisions, but they’re a part of learning and growing. They’re reminders that i am capable of feeling and my heart is willing to persevere and endure even through the most difficult times.

4. I can’t expect myself to have a solution for everything. There are things I cannot fix overnight — battles, failures, disappointement, anxiety etc. These things are natural and important. It is through destruction that I am able to recreate.

5. Everyone is fighting their own battles. So am i. There will be times when i am okay and times when i am not okay. I embrace the comfort of feeling happy but be thankful for those times when am not sure i’ll make it to the end of the tunnel. That light will keep waiting for me, even if i am feeling like i can’t go on any longer. Every time i don’t feel okay, i remember that God will make a way where there seems to be no way. HE works in ways i cannot see. HE will make all things beautiful in HIS time. I need to hold on and hang in there.

I remember to be patient and kind to myself. Love myself the most because God loves me and i am HIS precious daughter and HE is a promise keeping God.

This thoughtful inventory about myself, time and again, always leads me to discover myself. As i am true to myself, i know myself, and know others too. Noticing myself, i learn the new opportunities and expansive ways to champion myself and become impeccably respectful and kind with my own self-care. The truth is always revealed to those who are open and are willing to see.

We are all human and we go through different phases in life. A lil note to encourage if someone’s sailing in the same boat.

8 thoughts on “It’s Okay to Not Be Okay

  1. reading this.we get lot of positive energy, if we are feeling depressed ,feeling low of our selves…we can come back to our selves and start loving ourselves
    nice amy great going ..

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  2. a very good write up Amy.. really so true…all of us require such thoughts once in a way to realize that we are not alone and there is “h.ope”

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    1. ThanQ Lalli 🙂 Ofcourse we do .. we all sail in different boats each and everyday in this river of life and face those icebergs hidden/unhidden at times. 🙂

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  3. Beautifully written.. after reading ur article, I too now can say IT’S OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY.. reminds us how lucky n precious we as human beings.. keep ur good work yaar n keep writing such wonderful articles

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